The Wild and The Weak


The Wild and The Weak


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The Wild and the Weak…

I have had a very difficult week babe…HA!  Sounds a little foolish coming off the year I have had but still…it’s been rough.

The pain and sorrow I have been battling seem to have crept back to the forefront like an army of enemy soldiers.   After waging a year long war, I had managed to push the enemy back behind a line that let me breathe.  I have needed to catch my breath.  But alas, when I wasn’t looking the enemy came screaming back in to the front and brought me down to my knees.  I have been left a screaming crying pile of rubble, I have been brought back to start.

Is this my new life?  Will I forever struggle with all that is left in me just to breathe and get up and do?  I’m not sure I will make it then, if this is it.  I’m so tired.  I’m just so tired.  Playing the role of normal takes away everything that was left inside me when I didn’t see you come back to the surface when I never saw her signal she made it to safety.  In those moments, everything I was left me.  I died too.

I have an old friend from high school.  We were best friends for a time.  Over the years, many years, we lost touch.  She thinks of me though, and the sorrow I live, and from time to time she sends me a token of hope and joy.  She extends a gesture of ‘life’ that has the power to carry me through a few more moments.  That is huge.  When darkness is all around me and there’s nowhere left to turn it is these gestures from long ago friends that bring me to light.  It is huge…it is life.  It is an energizing breath.

Today I received this…

Allow
By Danna Faulds

There is no controlling life.
Try corralling a lightning bolt,
containing a tornado.  Dam a
stream and it will create a new
channel.  Resist, and the tide
will sweep you off your feet.
Allow, and grace will carry
you to higher ground.  The only
safety lies in letting it all in –
the wild and the weak; fear,
fantasies, failures and success.
When loss rips off the doors of
the heart, or sadness veils your
vision with despair, practice
becomes simply bearing the truth.
In the choice to let go of your
known way of being, the whole
world is revealed to your new eyes.

It’s in the words, but more importantly, it’s in the gesture that I find strength.  Some amazing people touch my life.  I am blessed.

I love you David and I miss you in a very big way.

I love you Kathy and your kind heart.  Thank you for the strength of today.


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  1. The Wild and the Weak…

    I have had a very difficult week babe…HA!  Sounds a little foolish coming off the year I have had but still…it’s been rough.

    The pain and sorrow I have been battling seem to have crept back to the forefront like an army of enemy soldiers.   After waging a year long war, I had managed to push the enemy back behind a line that let me breathe.  I have needed to catch my breath.  But alas, when I wasn’t looking the enemy came screaming back in to the front and brought me down to my knees.  I have been left a screaming crying pile of rubble, I have been brought back to start.

    Is this my new life?  Will I forever struggle with all that is left in me just to breathe and get up and do?  I’m not sure I will make it then, if this is it.  I’m so tired.  I’m just so tired.  Playing the role of normal takes away everything that was left inside me when I didn’t see you come back to the surface,  when I never saw her signal she made it to safety.  In those moments everything I was left me.  I died too.

    I have an old friend from high school.  We were best friends for a time.  Over the years, many years, we lost touch.  She thinks of me though, and the sorrow I live, and from time to time she sends me a token of hope and joy.  She extends a gesture of ‘life’ that has the power to carry me through a few more moments.  That is huge.  When darkness is all around me and there’s nowhere left to turn it is these gestures from long ago friends that bring me to light.  It is huge…it is life.  It is an energizing breath.

    Today I received this…

    Allow
    By Danna Faulds

    There is no controlling life.
    Try corralling a lightning bolt,
    containing a tornado.  Dam a
    stream and it will create a new
    channel.  Resist, and the tide
    will sweep you off your feet.
    Allow, and grace will carry
    you to higher ground.  The only
    safety lies in letting it all in –
    the wild and the weak; fear,
    fantasies, failures and success.
    When loss rips off the doors of
    the heart, or sadness veils your
    vision with despair, practice
    becomes simply bearing the truth.
    In the choice to let go of your
    known way of being, the whole
    world is revealed to your new eyes.

    It’s in the words, but more importantly it’s in the gesture that I find strength.  Some amazing people touch my life.  I am blessed.

    I love you David and I miss you in a very big way.

    I love you Kathy and your kind heart.  Thank you for the strength of today.

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